I’m not a toy, though I’m just a girl.
Not filled with wool, filled with emotions.
You know, sometimes I just feel like saying out a whole lot of things that are in my mind. But right now, I’m just so tired. I’m so tired, I could just walk right up the tallest building nowedge of it, and allow myself to fall slowly.
And as I fall, everybody watches.
That’s how I feel right now, that’s what’s in my head. I wouldn’t call it suicidal. I think, it’s just a mental break, I just need that a lot. I can’t deal with stress anymore, but I get that a lot. Worse, I think I’m starting to get a little depressed. But it doesn’t matter, I never really mattered much. Not to such a great length anyway, or maybe not anymore. Perhaps I am the only fool alive, who still plays a fair game. Perhaps I am the only fool alive, who still believes in everything and holds on to promises and the “used-tos”. I guess, I am the only fool alive who gives in at everything.
I’m not… really thinking straight right now. Well, even if I weren’t tired I guess it’s no point saying out or typing out what’s in my mind. No point. Not trying to be a saint or to be nice, I really don’t know. I really don’t know what I’m thinking right now exactly, a lot, but I can’t focus on one. I should go, I should really go.
But before I go, all I can say is… I’m really just a girl who’s full of sincerity, and I never let anything little change the least bit of me, not at all. I’m a girl who’s full of sincerity, and love. It’s not that I’ve not been through enough to make me learn, I’ve gone through way more than enough to make me jaded. But that’s where I remain stubborn, to be who I am today still.
Till then, take care.
P.S. sometimes, i do the utmost unthinkable things. why? because apart from i really love you, i believe in you and think you’re worth it, even when i’m shown and told by others otherwise. i don’t really care what people say or think of you, and you know how i’m like too. all in all, i just wish to make you happy, really happy, and i wish to be happy too. but at times, i just feel like i’m failing, that i’ve failed, to make you happy. and i get really sad. because you’re not happy. and just so you know, i love your smiles, i really do. i love it when i see you smiling at me, i love it when i’m able to make you smile and laugh. those, make me happy too. so, please smile.